Wednesday, April 28, 2004
2days such a super sian day.. sprained my ankle during morning games.. haiz.. damn freakingly painful but q shuang cos i got carried arnd by moses, peiying n yihui. haha.. almost got carried by yong but i din wan him to. felt too weird. anw so now i'm handicapped. hafta use crutches to get arnd.. damn sian cos i'm lousy w it. just hope i dun topple down the stairs or sth..
got 1wk mc from sch n mc from PE for 3wks, but i most prob going sch lah. mum's not too happy abt it. wans me to quit canoeing but dat's really q silly. but i cant train in the meantime, so.. yeah.. sian. hopefully i can walk on my own v soon den mayb can row lor. if i cant run n cant row, even if i work on upper body also wun b v effective.. i dowan to lag behind again in k1 lor. haiz.. sux
random thoughts at 6:05:00 AM
Friday, April 23, 2004
went to watch
50 First Dates w some of my teammates just now! it's supersupersupersuper nice!! loved it lots man..
my new fav movie! :) it's damn farny n damn sweet.. hahaz.. laughed lyk siao thruout the whole thing. anw
drew barrymore's got sth abt her dat i love.. loved her in
Ever After, loved her in
Charlie's Angels, now i love her in
50 First Dates! really a damn nice movie dat'll i'll recommend ya all to watch.. mayb i'll go buy the vcd!
nicenicenice..~
random thoughts at 7:37:00 AM
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
hm.. nth special to talk abt except dat i got
super painful blisters but i get to wear sandals to sch! haha.. y am i so excited over wearing sandals.. i also dunno. bleahs.. damn bored cos hafta do econs tys n i havent got any idea of wad public finance is abt.. haiz.. anw,
special mention to my beloved
boulder who insists i mention her on my blog. i noe
she loves me so much dat she wans to b as involved in my life as possible, so i'm obliging :)
-hi boulder!- hahahahahaz
random thoughts at 5:46:00 AM
Monday, April 19, 2004
haiz.. i'm still sad abt jpl.. but i shall not harp on it anymore since he's alr gone.. feel damn sian. hate the weather dis days.. freakingly hot. too bad i cant on the aircon every nite so sumtimes i practically hafta hug the fan to slp >.<
aiyah.. i also dunno wad else to crap alr.. hahaz.. lazy to think of things to mention.. -shrugs- kk i'll go n slack arnd. hahaz :)
random thoughts at 6:15:00 AM
Friday, April 16, 2004
omg.. :(
*heart shatters into millions of tiny pieces* i'm totally heartbrokened.. :( how can JPL b gone?! :( wah lau.. :(
AMERICA MUST B MAD N BLIND to vote him off instead of john stevens lor.. :( wad the hell!!!! :( arghhh... :(
JPL.. JPL.. JPL.. :( i really nv tot he'll b out of the running so soon lor!! :(
he's so cute lah! :( wah lau.. :(
i cant believe it i really cant believe it.. :( JPL?! :( how can?!!! :( aaahhhhHHH..... :(
i'm so damn sad.. :( how can america do dis to my JPL... :(
random thoughts at 5:43:00 AM
Thursday, April 15, 2004
was watching tv den dis character said:
"relationship between a man n woman is never innocent. it either starts w romance n ends w frenship, of starts w frenship n ends w romance."
another said:
"man gif love for sex. but a woman gifs sex for love."
another said:
"nu ren dou shi kou shi xin fei, zui ying xin luan de."
think it's q interesting cos there's a certain amt of truth in those words i suppose
anw, dis few days v
feng ping lang jing.. it's a gd thing :) hahaz.. heard a piece of news 2day.. still reeling in the shock n surprise.. hahaz.. q happy though i think it's damn stupid.. -shrugs- got AMI later! yay..
Jon Peter Lewis rox! :)
random thoughts at 6:42:00 AM
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
i dunno y but time seems to b moving so quikly dis days.. so fast tues alr.. haiz.. still havent finished my phy geog stuffs.. sux.. but anw, ran my P.B for 2.4k yday.. 11min22sec.. q happy to improve by 17s but not as elated as the 1st time i ran under 12min. yah.. just feel damn sian now. dun haf anything nice to do n i'm really not in the mood to complete my geog essay..
plate tectonics weathering limestone slopes... spare me for 2day pls
-_-"
hm.. think daniel's super farny. haha.. laughed lyk mad 2day though i still find it a little irritating dat he keeps calling me
kan chiong mama the whole day. but besides dat, think he's a damn nice person to talk crap w cos he
NV runs out of spastic things to say. hahaha.. glad he's mixing well w fabian n the rest :) o yah! finally mananged to trick fabian. hahahaz..
felt such a strong sense of satisfaction. think he's a farny guy too.. suddenly the world seems to b filled w farny pple huh.. farny in the
'haha u'r so farny' sense as well as the
'u'r weird' kinda farny. reminds me of some pple. bleahs.
random thoughts at 5:33:00 AM
Saturday, April 10, 2004
hm.. got A for everything in napfa except standing broad jump! missed A by
1 freaking centimetre.. argh.. but nvm lah. wad the hell. bleahs.. anw i love mr barber! he helped me to keep my B for geog. haha.. got O7 for econs but derek lee says he'll try to help push me up since i got 44.. yup.. if can push up, den i'll get BEO instead of BOO.. hahaz
kinda sian abt SOME stupid n spastic thing dis days. just find it all so ridiculous. i cannot choose who i wan to talk to meh? i dun haf the right to b gd frens w pple i wan meh?
SIAO. so now all bcos of dis, pple'r going to start
keeping their distance away from me.
oh wow. dat's lyk, SO GREAT SO FANTASTIC SO EXCITING.. sheesh..
pls lor. really dun understand
wad the freaking hell is wrong w u pple. but at least i noe derwin's not the type to b bothered w dis kinda rubbish so i'll still haf him to crap arnd with. thank god.
and
YOU. u'r still rolling downhill lyk one gigantic snowball man.. rolling down faster n faster. dun b stupid lah. really cant stand the way u portray urself dis days. hello. go n stare at urself in the mirror. check out ur freakingly pathetic reflection. i really dunno wad else there is for me to say alr lah. giving up on ur case. no1 can help u if u wanna continue being lyk dis.
dun piss me off pple. i really hate it.
random thoughts at 8:30:00 AM
Friday, April 02, 2004
having napfa tmr.. feel q bored abt it but i'm glad 2.4's not tmr. feeling too lazy dis days to run my best. bleahs.. got training tmr afternoon.. q sian abt it too. haf mixed feelings for canoeing i guess. haiz.. anw my common tests results suck lah.. failed maths.. got 38 but it's not bad considering the fact dat only 1 person passed, no1 got O7, n only 4 got O8. heard the whole of arts fac only got 5 passes. yup.. haha.. q happy dat i got 30 for GP essay but i think my disappointment for phy geog overrides everything else. cant believe i misread the qn but i only haf myself to blame lah. really depending on barber now.. hopefully he'll gimme a gd mark so i can keep my B for geog. dunno if i shd keep my geog S since i'm only taking it for interest's sake. dun really think i'll do well enuf to get scholarship. haha.. nvm lah. c how 1st. if must drop den no nid to think liao wad.
random thoughts at 7:12:00 AM
i just realised how
stupid my last blog was. haha.. but dat's besides the point. dis is really wad i'm blogging for rite now:
u shd noe if i'm talking abt u. i dowan to sound lyk i'm scolding u or wad but i really hope u'll just wake up n c wad u'v reduced urself into for the past few mths. i think it's damn stupid dat u'r doing all dis incredibly silly things to urself, whether u realise it or not. mayb some pple in ur life dun gif a damn abt u but pretty much every1 has sum1 lyk dis in their lives to, so y let it bother u so much? there r other pple who care abt u lor okay?
i dowan to talk much to u dis days n i'm not sure if u realised it. but it's cos i'm actually q pissed off w u for becoming wad u r now. u were not lyk dis when i 1st got to noe u. cant u just snap out of dis shit? i dunno how to describe how i felt when i read ur blog but i kinda tot u sounded pathetic n i'm sorry but i dun mean it the sympathetic way.
so wad if u 2 cant get back? he's not the only person arnd lor. so y cant u just get over it? let it go since it's over n move on! i noe it's not easy but u hafta admit dat dat's the only way to move along. it's the only path u haf in front of u. dun stand there n keep luking back when u noe it's useless.
i dunno wad he really thinks, but lyk i told u b4, wad u can do is limited. if he doesnt wan to help himself n continues being such an idiot gambling n wadeva, den it's really up to him wad. do u think u really can help? u cannot lor. i tried to do the same but there was really nth much i cld do since the 1 i was trying to help din wan to bother to help himself. they hafta c the nid to change b4 they really will change.
instead of making urself feel even more miserable, y dun u channel ur energy to sth else? u noe ur results arent dat great den work harder! if u go to lessons w/o even knowing wad's being taught den how can u expect urself to do well? it'll just make u feel lousier in the end when the next common tests comes arnd. is dis wad u wan? dun keep saying u wanna go arts now lah okay? u noe n i noe very well dat dat's a stupid suggestion cos it's too late for u to do dat.
i dunno wad to say to u to make u realise how foolish u r lor. i reallly dunno.. i can only tell u wad i think abt wad has been happening all dis while but wadeva i say just doesnt seem to b going into ur head. listen to me okay? get over it, move on n do wad u'r supposed to do. dun mope arnd the whole day thinking of wad cld'v been or wad wld'v been if u din do wad u did. wad's done is done lor. sumtimes there's just no way to turn things back to the way it was b4.
dat day when i saw dat thing on ur wrist i was q horrified. how can u do dat to urself? i really dun understand lor. does it make u feel better? does it lessen the hurt u feel cos the pain is concentrated elsewhere? dun b stupid alr? it just adds on to the pain dat u'r feeling. do u noe the way u'r behaving is making us worried? there'r pple who care abt u but u refuse to get over things. actually all of us dun think there's really anything wrong w u. it's just dat u'r weakening mentally. so y r u letting dis happen?
i'll b arnd to listen to u when u nid me n i hope u wun b angry w me or wad, but i dun really care if u wan to hear all dis or not. i just hafta say dis again:
WAKE UP N MOVE ON. PLEASE.
random thoughts at 6:55:00 AM
